0245hrs
I can’t sleep and there’s classroom session tmr morning. The more I can’t sleep, the more I think. Think about what’s next for me after graduation, about where I wanna travel to after grad, about my relationship with people I love and care for, about how to save up enough to support myself and do what I like, about the international internship Cass talked to me about, about work… ItBs just so many things, it’s pretty overwhelming.
And at the same time, something else is bothering me so bad, i’m at a loss and I don’t know what to do. Actually I don’t want to do anything anymore, i’m just sick of whatever that comes after that. There’s just no point.
Not helping ‘cause everything is making me feel unworthy, jaded, redundant, lonely, all in one way or another. Really need a break / mini getaway, which i hope i’ll be getting soon! An early 21st stay at Quincy with the 2.
Dread school tomorrow. These are not the kind of familiar faces i want to see either.
Goodnight folks!
